June 2011
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April 2011
27 posts
Kickin’ it old school with a journal.
PAYCE.
That was an interesting experience.
Let’s see how the next 8 weeks go.
It initially felt like today was going to be less-than-average. But it wasn’t. In fact, it was a great day.
Correction: every day is a great day.
I’m already wishing this term away and thinking about my summer.
Actually, I don’t care that I’m in classes. I just want some sun is all.
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“I also respect myself, and I don’t allow anybody to write my story. My story is my responsibility; it’s my creation. I am the artist, and I respect my own art. I can compare my art with other people’s art, But I make my own choices, and I take responsibility for my creation. When I first had the awareness that I didn’t like my story, I thought, “Okay, I am the...
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We tend to get caught up in the negatives of our dream (or reality). This could concern any number of things. Friends, family, the world, ourselves. But why do we do this? Why do we have the incessant need to constantly look at the negative energy in our lives? Why is it at the forefront of our minds? Is it easier to be pessimistic, or is it harder to be optimistic?
When we’re...
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One day.
How I Know I'm on the Up-and-Up
So I was just driving on Sunnyside, and a female driver abruptly merged in my lane. There was about a car-length and a half between the front of my car and the car in front of me, so I honked at the driver to inform her “Hey, that probably wasn’t the most intelligent thing to do”.
And she gave me the finger.
And my first genuine reaction was to just laugh; to just start...
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Alright, I’m dealing with my garbage tonight:
So, I have your St. Christopher necklace. I’ve had it for around 7 years now. I also have the coin you gave me - I’ve had that for…6 years? Man, I can’t believe it’s been that long…I’ve had this feeling in the pit of my stomach for some time - all 6 years. It felt more like a boulder at that time, but...
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Awesome.
“Everybody has 5.5 liters of blood”
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Narayanan Krishnan
Yea. That’s definitely the one.
I’ve been thinking lately, and I’ve come to the realization that I absolutely love what I’m doing (in terms of a career).
When I say this, I’m talking about what I’m actually going to be doing in my job. I know that a lot of people who choose to do what I’m doing, after waving through all their bullshit, are out for the money, the pride, or the glory of the...
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Looking back at my previous posts, I’m impressed with the amount of growth that has already happened.
Go me.
“In a normal relationship in hell, the Parasite of your partner allies with your...”
– Don Miguel Ruiz
Genius. Absolute Genius. I can’t even begin to explain the number of pages I have dog-eared or the number of passages I have highlighted. The man speaks truth, and I’m touched every time I read anything of his.
Had this idea today: how useful is facebook, actually?
I don’t really do anything on it. Like a photo here. Pithy dumbass comment there.
Do I need it? No.
Then I’m getting rid of it.
“Love is based on respect. Fear doesn’t respect anything, including itself....”
– Don Miguel Ruiz
Real Talk.
Sober talk:
I probably shouldn’t drink like that until I’m in a better state of mind (I.E. after more time has passed).
Everything I said is true, but now I’m just going to put all of it at the back of my mind, since any of the aforementioned scenarios are in the distant future.
Also, I’m surprised at my typing and sentence-composing capabilities in my...
Drunk talk pt. 3:
The day you sleep next to me again will be a great one. One for the books for sure. It’s only been a week and I already miss your warmth on the other side of the bed. The way you slept was always interesting/comical to me. You always nestled your head and face into pillows/blankets in the most suffocating/claustrophobic way. I miss that too.
Drunk talk pt. 2:
I’ve been thinking recently. I can’t wait for the day when you call me. Honestly, as needy as this sounds, I miss your voice. I miss your laugh. I miss your body. I miss your smile. I miss you.
I understand what you’re doing, but I fucking hate it.
Drunk talk:
God damn I miss you.
I’m a bit disappointed with myself. My current motivation for drinking isn’t the right one.
Let’s change this in the coming weeks.
March 2011
5 posts
Dinner with Twin (continual updates - I need to...
If I could have recorded that conversation, I would’ve listened to it everyday while I rode my bike or walked around campus.
Alright, I’m going to try and regurgitate as much information as humanly possible, in an attempt for later viewing:
Here’s a (relative) breakdown of our history in my own mind - I could be completely wrong:
I became a crutch throughout the relationship....
Out of the negative mindset starting….
NOW!
Life is good.
Close the door. It’s out of your control. Only think and worry about the issues that you can control. If you continue to worry and lose sleep over issues that are out of your control, you will drive yourself crazy.
Close the door.
EDIT: All posts prior to this one are angry as hell. I’m keeping them to track my progress. But If you read them, read with a grain of salt.
Semantics via Mental Bulimia Nervosa
My perspectives will be changing on a daily basis, because I’m currently immersed in a volatile situation. Some of these posts will be contradicting, only because of this constant change in perspective.
Some days I will be angry, others I will be hurt. Sometimes I’ll be strong, other days i’ll be weak. If I could sum up my thoughts and views in an object (yay, metaphor time), it...
Let's Do This
Before Spring Term starts, here are a few ideas to think about:
I’ve just had an interesting epiphany: I now have virtually zero problems to deal with.
My life was consumed with others’ problems. I was constantly consoling, trying to find a solution, or being a shoulder/crutch. I now have the opportunity to be my own man, and to look out for what’s in my best interest. I honestly don’t remember...